I was born October 30 2001,

I feel super in an abusive home, so trigger warning for pictures of me with bruises.

This is me at 9 (the one in the purple dress)

This is when I knew something was off, I didn't have a name for it, but I knew I wasn't exactly a girl

This is me at 11. I was put into an abusive foster home. It sucked (purple dress)

This is me at 13. A year before I came out. By now I knew I wanted to be a boy. I researched about it and learned what being transexual was. (White dress)

This is me at 14–15

I already came out in these photos, and I was pre t. Was in several foster homes and treatment centers, and it was hell.

The day before I started T

This was me at 16. Shortly after my 16th birthday I started testosterone. (Feb 12, 2018)

3 months on t.

6 months on t

8 months on t

9 months on t

The last pictures

of me in a binder. (10 months)

1 year on t! I also got top surgery the day before my 1 year mark lol, I got double incision.

1 week post op

Me now. (17 years old, 1 year 3 months, 4 months post op.)

I went through a lot of struggles and thought I would never start t let alone get surgery. Trust me kiddos, you'll make it lol

Edit: lol hey I have more pictures

1 year a few months on T, now with black hair :)

edit 2;

1y11m on T:

Edit once again:

I see all the comments about my cuts. I am aware I have self harm scars, and I know they look troubling. Truth is I'm not the happiest I could be, and I very much struggle with my mental health. But transitioning has saved my life in ways no therapist, medication, or hospital/treatment center ever could. If I didn't transition I would very well have killed myself by now. Living my life as a male finally gave me the energy and determination to work on my mental health, my gender dysphoria was suffocating me and I couldn't focus on anything but the overwhelming feeling of being a prisoner in my own skin. I am depressed. I am sad. I am scared. But I am also alive and capable of being happy. I was diagnosed with a few different mental illnesses, I have been in therapy for years, I have been to over 24 different psych wards, 3 residentals, 7 foster homes, and 11 shelters/evaluation centers. I work very hard on my mental health and I make progress everyday. My self harm isn't healthy,. I know. I have self harmed for over 9 years now. I have been cutting on my thighs and forearms even as a girl, I just moved onto my arms. I try my damn hardest to be clean, and I promise you a stranger on the internet demanding I seek help, despite the fact I am and have, isn't going to cure this. These pictures are not a cry for help, they are me sharing my progress! So please don't make assumptions about my life based in my body, I am so much happier than Ive ever been, but I still have a long way to go. Thank you for being concerned about me and my well being, but please stop arguing about wether or not I'm happy and healthy.

I have best hopes for any young transperson who struggles are similar to mine, and I want you to know, things aren't going to suck forever. You are going to be able to be yourself one day, it just takes time and unbelievable amounts of paitence. I know it's hard but you just need to stay alive and have hope! You are going to finally be yourself one day and you are going to look in the mirror and see the man/woman you are meant to be. I love you and I know you can do this, stay strong. Have hope.

Here's some more pics. I love you all and hope you're well, thank you for all the kind words and acceptance.

Hello! Another update because why not lol.

I will be 19 next month! I have also graduated high school and have been accepted into the university of wisconsin superior! I'm going to major in Visual Arts. I am almost 3 years on T, 2 years post op, and many other good milestones! I am in remission from Borderline Personality Disorder, I have not self harmed since March, and I'm starting to recover from my other mental illnesses as well. I have gotten a few jobs, so right now I'm currently working 3. (Technically 4) I have also made a career as an artist! I am making art for some magazines and I have been in a few showcasings. I have come out as Aromantic and I have cut out all the negative people in my life and have surrounded mysely with people who are there for me, and I can trust them. I have made several personal developments! I am a lot happier since my last edit. I have gained muscle and lost a lot of fat lol, I have also been putting up a hobby of taking care of plants lol, I currently have 25 in my room. I have found several new interests and hobbies for myself. I have joined several organizations that aim to help fight racism , bigotry, and improve the mental health of the youth in my area. I have made several life long friends and am the happiest I've been my entire life. I have started anti depressants that have DRASTICALLY improved my psychological well being. Life is good. I have not been mainly suicidal or wanted to end my life for almost a year now. I am glad and very happy to see all the positive comments! And to the negative ones, sucks to be you I guess. If you have to take the time out of your day to misgender me, or tell me I am not a “real man”, then you must have a very sad life, and I hope you get well soon! I have not regretted any aspect of my transition, and I doubt I ever will. I have also offically legally changed my name and gender marker!

Here are some recent pics, my hair is longer now

Also I'm in college now, getting an Art Therapy and Psychopathology degree. :) I'm 4 months clean from self harm!!! And I'm making lots of friends. Life is good. (2–25–2021)

Till next time,

Jarrett