Move away. I moved away from the city I was raised in. I had moved away and my life would improve. I moved back a couple of times and each time my life would turn for the worse. I have been away from there for 11 years other than one visit and I have never been happier. Sometimes a fresh start is all you need to move forward and make peace with the past. Looking at your old house and being there is something you needed to do to deal with it, but it is time to move on and truly be free to be happy. Best of luck to you.